Me, Myself, and I

 ✌  My life started at St. Joseph's Hospital, Houston
👤  Then my dad went to Persia for his job
👋  My mother and I lived with her parents for a couple of years  
👩  When my dad returned, we moved to Normandy, France 
💁  After France, we went to Colombia
👶  While we were there, my sister was born
👀  Then we went to Port Arthur, TX
💗  After that, we went back to Normandy
🙋  When we returned from Normandy, we went to Orono, ME
💞  After Maine, I spent the summer at camp in Vermont
👐  While I was at camp, my family moved to Toledo, OH
👍  After we left Toledo, we moved to Venezuela
👧  When we returned to the US, we lived in Short Hills, NJ
💋  After 3 years in New Jersey, we moved to Paris, France
👅  We returned to Bernardsville, NJ, after 2 years in Paris
👰  Then I moved to Greenwich Village in NY and got married
👎  After a few  years of living and working in NY, we moved to NJ
💔  I moved to Maine during the Bicentennial after my first divorce
💫  For a couple of years I lived with my mother then moved to TX
💑  After 12 years in TX, a marriage, and a divorce, I moved to CO
💃  After 8 years in CO, I moved to Kalispell, MT
💣  After 7 years and another divorce I moved to Aberdeen, WA

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The present is no less dark than the past, 

and its mystery is equal to anything the future might hold


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Who I Am According to Plutchik's Flower
You are a perceptive introvert.  You are a very thoughtful, reasonable, reliable, and quiet person.  You seek balance in life and you are very content being alone. You love reading books, learning new things, and challenging yourself. You love a good one-on-one  conversation with an inspiring and knowledgeable person.  People around you love your wise aura and enjoy seeking advice from you.

I am on the razor's edge, with acceptance on one side and denial on the other, reaching desperately for a fingerhold in memory.

Your strongest mental ability is logic.  You're down to earth, serious, and always resort to calm, cool, and collected logic.  Your mind works based on hard facts and not fleeting emotions.  Sound, logical arguments appeal to you, even if emotionally you may feel otherwise.  You pride yourself on your balance and fairness but others may see you as a bit aloof and uncaring.  You have a strong sense of right and wrong, always striving to live by a moral code and ethical standards.  Your calm and logical thinking will take you far.
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I diagnosed myself with Adult Attachment Disorder after spending some time in counseling and thinking back about my life and my relationships.  It was a relief to realize it wasn't really my fault.  I did the best I could with what I had.

Adult Attachment Disorder, Dismissive–Avoidant Type

People with a dismissive style of avoidant attachment tend to agree with these statements: "I am comfortable without close emotional relationships", "It is very important to me to feel independent and self-sufficient", and "I prefer not to depend on others or have others depend on me." People with this attachment style desire a high level of independence. The desire for independence often appears as an attempt to avoid attachment altogether. They view themselves as self-sufficient and invulnerable to feelings associated with being closely attached to others. They often deny needing close relationships. Some may even view close relationships as relatively unimportant.

What Is The Dismissive-Avoidant Attachment Style?
The person with a dismissive-avoidant attachment style has a mentality that he or she is not in need of other people and can survive being alone, and does not need to depend on another for happiness or completeness as a person.

Unattachment
Individuals who have learned to apply this attachment style are those people who were not too attached to their parents while they were young. When it came to new relationships and how they interact with others they try to avoid being too emotionally attached or intimate. They are uncomfortable with physical contact, intimacy, and even romantic gestures to their partners. They are considered to be loners.

Aversion to Intimacy and Physical Attachment
Adults with this attachment style fear rejection and cope with it by opting to not be involved in close relationships. When it comes to dealing with physical or emotional attachments, they tend to move away.

Use Repression
Dismissive-avoidant people prefer to deal with loss and/or separation on their own. This is to hide their vulnerability and instead cope with conflicts by repressing their feelings.